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An Update CV Lay-Off Day: 33

Today, we got word that Tim’s company extended his furlough. Initially, their goal was to bring everyone back on May 14th; now, they are hoping for June 30th. The travel industry has taken a hard hit, so this turn of events is not shocking. Even still, it is not the news we were hoping to receive.

For the last few days, I have been camping out in Ephesians 6:10-20. Today, verse 10 especially caught my attention.

“Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might.”

I like what my ESV note has to say about vs. 10: “Because Christians cannot stand on their own against superhuman powers, they must rely on the strength of the Lord’s own might, which he supplies chiefly through prayer.” 

Would you know that I woke up feeling extremely vulnerable? I had 10,000 thoughts coursing through my mind before I got my first sip of coffee, and that’s just not right. On my walk this morning, I knew it was going to be a Psalm 91 kind of day, and immediately pulled it up on my audio Bible app and played it on repeat.

And you know what I realized? Psalm 91 and Ephesians 6 pair together beautifully. Read those two back to back, and you’ll see just what I mean. I might add, all of this happened before I knew about Tim’s employment situation.

In this, I see the hand of God; He was so kind as to prepare my mind to take refuge in Him and prompt me to pray. Since I have my boys at home, my prayers are often short sentences scattered throughout the day, but God hears every one of them.

I will add, for a good part of the morning, I waited to feel strengthened. But, sometimes, God’s strength does not become evident until you are square in the middle of the storm.  I don’t have any more answers than I did yesterday, but nevertheless, my heart is settled with His peace. And for that, I am thankful.

Until tomorrow,


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Eyes of Faith: CV Lay-Off Day:12

As I slipped out the front door for my morning walk, my mind was going a million miles a minute. I had awakened feeling overwhelmed and trepidation for the day ahead. 

While I walked, I talked to God. In fragmented sentences, I poured out my heart. Fear was at the center of my thoughts. As I asked the Lord to help me to trust Him, Jehosaphat’s prayer came to mind, “We do not know what to do, but our eyes are on you.” (2 Chronicles 20:12b)

Finally, turning on my audio Bible app, I picked back up where I’d left off from the day before, Genesis 20-22. I’d been curious about Abraham because of a passage I read in James 2:23-24, “Abraham believed God, and it was counted to him as righteousness” –and he was called a friend of God.” Why I wondered, did God call him his friend?

As I listened to the rest of Abraham’s story unfold, I wept.

God told Abraham, “Take your son, your only son Isaac, whom you love, and go to the land of Moriah, and offer him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains of which I shall tell you.” (Genesis 22:2)

Abraham rose early the next morning, saddled his donkeys, and took two of his young men with him, and his son Isaac. After three days of travel, Abraham “lifted up his eyes and saw the place from afar.” 

“Then Abraham said to you his young men, “Stay here with the donkey; I and the boy will go over there and worship and come again to you.” (verse 22:5)

“And Abraham took the wood of the burnt offering and laid it on Isaac, his son. And he took in his hand the fire and the knife. So they went both of them together. And Isaac said to his father Abraham, “My father!” And he said, “Here am I, my son.” He said, “Behold, the fire and the wood, but where is the lamb for a burnt offering?” 

Abraham said, “God will prove for himself the lamb for a burnt offering, my son. So they went both together. 

Whey they came to the place which God had told him, Abraham built the altar there and laid the wood in order and bound Isaac, his son and laid on him on the altar, on top of the wood. Then Abraham reached out his hand and took the knife to slaughter his son. But the angel of the LORD called to him from heaven and said, “Abraham, Abraham!” And he said, “Here am I.” He said, “Do not lay your hand on the boy or do anything to him; for now, I know that you fear God, seeing you have not withheld your son, your only son, from me.”

And Abraham lifted up his eyes and looked, and behold, behind him was a ram, caught in a thicket by his horns. And Abraham went and took the ram and offered it up as a burnt offering instead of his son.  

So, Abraham called the name of that place, “The LORD will provide”; as it is said to this day, “On the mount of the LORD it shall be provided. (Genesis 22:6-14)

I noticed three ways that Abraham believed God:

  • He believed God from the very beginning, “The boy and I will go over there and worship and come again to you.
  • In belief, Abraham told Issac that God would provide a sacrifice
  • Abraham’s faith was realized, and he (Abraham) called the name of that place, “God will provide”

My question answered was answered; Abraham was a friend of God because he believed God, this is faith.

Tonight, as I write, I have no further clarity about the future. No one does, really. But, I want my faith to be like Abraham’s. And right now, He says, “Child, trust Me.”

Lord, though we don’t know what to do, our eyes are on the You. 

Until tomorrow,


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Coronavirus Lay-off: Day One

My husband has worked in the travel industry for almost 20 years. Together, we weathered the catastrophe of 911 when travel came to a screeching halt. I’ll never forget the day the planes crashed into the Twin Towers. At the time, Justin and Sarah were watching Sesame Street; a friend called and said, “Missy, turn on the news.” Like everyone else in America, I was stunned.

I frantically called Tim at work. He was inundated with travelers desperately trying to get home to their families. It was a frightening time for all of us; we had no idea what might be coming next. Soon, no one was traveling, and the travel industry throughout our country was significantly impacted. Tim’s employer did everything they could do to stay afloat. All bonuses were cut; they reduced wages and laid off scores of employees. Tim was one of the few to keep his job.

And now, here we are, all these years later facing another crisis; the coronavirus. Much like 911, this has taken me by surprise. Although I have followed some of the stories from China, I never imagined it hitting our country as it has, and never did I imagine the virus directly impacting our family.

Since my husband works from home, I am keenly aware when he is swamped or if he’s having a slow day. As you can imagine, over the last few weeks, things have slowed down considerably. Three days ago, he told me that the CEO of his company announced a town hall meeting, it was held yesterday. Together, Tim and I imagined that there would have to be some cutbacks. But, we were stunned when his CEO announced an eight-week lay-off for all, without pay, effective immediately.

Last night, as I lay in bed considering the ins and outs of our new normal, I was reminded of a prayer I prayed soon after we lost our son, Justin. I asked the Lord to use every ounce of our pain for His glory, I didn’t want one tear to be wasted. I feel the same way about Tim’s lay-off and our uncertain future.

And would you know, this morning, as I walked through our neighborhood, I believe that the Lord gave me the idea to chronicle our journey of the ups and downs of the coronavirus-layoff.

Day One

Today was our first day of Tim being officially home; we’ll call it the honeymoon.  For the sake of our boys, we stuck to our morning routine. Since losing Justin, any change is twice as hard on them. We had a few meltdowns and a lot of words and hugs of reassurance. After lunch, Tim took them to the park to play, the rule is, no climbing on the equipment because of germs. As I write, they are snuggly tucked into their beds with a much lighter heart than they awoke this morning.

Our daughter’s job is still secure, and I couldn’t be happier for her.
As for Tim and I, we are praying, crunching numbers, and fully committed to trusting the Lord, minute by minute.

I remember how the Lord sustained me after we lost Justin.  Because He is the same yesterday, today, and forever, I can say with certainty, “Surely God is my hope; the Lord is the one who sustains me.” Psalm 54:4

Until tomorrow,