Grief in the Grocery Store
I have found that going to the grocery store is one of the most difficult of my tasks to complete. I try to prepare myself as I drive down the familiar road and listen to encouraging songs on the radio. I pull into a parking spot and pause. Oh Lord, please help me. Help me to see someone else through your eyes today. I think to myself, maybe if I can just take my eyes off of me, it won’t hurt so bad.
Out I go, I walk through the parking lot trying to collect my thoughts and secure a buggy. I walk through the automatic doors and am immediately greeted by flowers. I love the flowers but I don’t buy any because we are on a spending freeze. Next, it’s the produce and I can already feel the lump forming in my throat. As I select my fruit and veggies I work to swallow the lump and breath deeply. I know what’s coming. I walk by the “Naked Juice” and just about lose it. Justin loved that juice and it was his special thing that I occasionally buy for him. At this point, you may be thinking, just let yourself cry! In the grocery store, no thank you!
I look around slowly and take note of all the people walking around and wonder if they have just lost someone very special too? What is their story; could they be in the middle of a serious illness? Can they see the grief and sorrow on my face? I hurriedly try and complete my shopping forgetting that I was going to try and smile at someone today.
Soon my shopping trip comes to an end as I exchange benign pleasantries with the cashier. I walk back to my car and wonder if the thick cloud of grief is visible for all to see. I am told that this task will get easier with time, I am counting on that.
Hoping in His unfailing love,
2 thoughts on “Grief in the Grocery Store”
I had a similar experience…grief in the grocery store. It was about a week or maybe 2 after Lori passed. I heard someone laughing as I walked in and I remember thinking “how can anyone be laughing? Don’t they know my daughter died?” Of course they didn’t know…but I knew…I left that day and didn’t go back for months. Grief can be sneaky and hit you when you least expect it and in places you wouldn’t even think it would happen. Praying for you sweet friend.
Yes, I agree! Grief is unpredictable and can feel overwhelming on some days. Thank you for your prayers! ❤